The desperately unpopular view of our country from an urban curmudgeon
Another year is going by, and as I do each day I am privileged to draw breath, I thank God once again for His funky sense of humor and His attention to detail. Everyday, I find myself thinking: Thank God, I’m a Filipino!
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! Heir to the genius of Rizal, the words of Recto, the spirit of Bonifacio, the diplomacy of Sultan Kudarat, the eloquence of Tañada, the bravery of Sakay and Tandang Sora, the style of Moreno and Natori, the voice of Andion Fernandez, the art of Amorsolo and Manansala, the science of Zara and Velasquez, and the exquisite bounty of nature that we never seem to have logged or polluted to shreds.
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! Vibrantly alive in this vortex of the surreal, where penitents shed blood, decorations are made from rice and nacre, pride in one’s children is broadcast from the trunks of taxi cabs and the mudguards of jeepneys, where people offer you food as a reflex and bow low if they have to pass between two people (or between you and the TV).
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! With a diverse culture that is as colorful and as full of flavor as the halo-halo. Here you can get music from Europe and America, anime from Japan, telenovellas from Korea and Mexico, and pirated versions of everything. Here we have a thriving population: 40% of them singers and dancers, 20% of them vocal impersonators and back-up dancers, which still leaves 16.8 million Pinoys who are better off as audience members!
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! With over-protective, incredibly conservative, “wat kind of a girl comes home at dis time op da nite”, wonderfully flawed and uniquely great parents; with a never-ending stream of relatives; with “Manang” and “Kuya”, with“po” and “opo”; with cantankerous and loving grandparents who would not think twice about conking me on the head with their baston if they thought I was misbehaving; with an extended family by joy and tears if not by blood: our staff, our friends, our colleagues.
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! For every bad habit you can name, the other side of the coin is a good one. The only difference is the edge of the coin, which I call discernment and balance. Pinoys love their families and like to get good deals for their friends, which sometimes leads to nepotism and corruption, but is also responsible for filial piety and expansive business networks. Pinoys are ingenious and resourceful, which sometimes leads to intricate schemes and plots, but also leads to creativity and innovation. Pinoys are ambitious, which sometimes leads to crab mentality, but can also fuel our successes. Pinoys take everything personally and are loyal to individuals – not concepts, which leads to a lack of civic duty and nationalism. But if we extended our definition of the family or clan to include the entire nation, we would rule the world. Call me whatever you like and laugh at me for my optimism; but I assert that Filipinos are a wonderful, if ill-disciplined, people.
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! Because if you want to find someone who can do something well and quickly, it will be a fellow Pinoy – someone who is too busy catering to the demands of his boss, his spouse, his kids, his sprawling extensive family, his barkada, and has a side-line selling used mobile phones to boot. This is the kind of person who will do acceptable work in the most expedient manner possible. And he can do so with limited or no funds, electricity, water and computers!
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! While in England, people thought I was loving – simply because I didn’t confine my affection to dogs and horses. While in America, people thought I was cute and “too nice” – simply because I was short and treated others with respect. And now in Manila, people are so unused to a reasonable level of initiative, efficiency, accountability, compassion, and the open declaration of a win-win agenda that I have fooled other people! Were I of any other nationality, I would be mediocre; in Manila, I am a refreshing oddity.
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! One of 84 million curmudgeons who laugh because it is too painful not to, who know we will never have a fiscal crisis because it would run counter to the oligarchy’s interests, who know that we should never drive around at 4pm lest we run into hungry traffic cops, who know that our government is corrupt and our countrymen are petty, but find ourselves donating to relief efforts, paying taxes and helping each other out anyway. The idiotic optimism of our people is responsible for paying for my high school education and subsidizing my six years in college. The knowledge I learned – both in success & failure, within the classroom and outside it – enabled me to study abroad.
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! Because speaking of idiotic optimism, if there’s one other thing that Pinoys have in common its insanity. Don’t believe what the media tells you – bad news sells. There is a large and growing number of people who are not only crazy enough to stay here, they actually love it! Who else but a Pinoy could thrive in the Philippines? Lunatics like my long-suffering teachers, unsung and paid a pittance their entire careers, but dearer to me than I could ever express. Basket-cases in the public sector: rural doctors, honest government workers (they do, indeed, exist); Weirdos in the private sector: the charities and foundations, the Brain Gain Network, thousands of enlightened entrepreneurs and business owners. Senseless acts of kindness and honor happen everyday and an incredible amount of money is made honestly in this country; unheralded and unnoticed by all.
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! Our unfinished revolutions – which are actually grand parties where fictional speeches are made, singing, dancing and prayer go on into the night and you invite everyone via text to participate – are a remarkable display of democracy. A democracy that may not be working very well, but saves us from being invaded in the name of “liberation”. A democracy that preys on its own people and will eventually force everyone to wake up, keep praying (and complaining) but CHANGE. Eventually it will be so detestable that we will realize that to try to change the system is like trying to boil the ocean, but to change ourselves (pain in the butt that it is) is the only solution. Thank God, that you drive us so relentlessly towards personal responsibility and integrity. Without the avarice and incompetence around us, we would remain the teenagers of the earth: possessors of freedoms we misuse and abuse, civic duties we neglect, and consciences we openly deride.
Thank God, I’m a Filipino! Thank God we suffer so! No nation or individual in the entire course of human history has become great without suffering. Thank God for the pollution, the crime, the poverty, the squalor and the misery. Thank God for all the people who moan and bitch and complain, thank God for all the people who pray and weep and proclaim: “Something has to change!”
Filipinos are not grateful or optimistic, we hate ourselves because we see nothing good in our country. We laugh because it would hurt too much not to, we complain because it would be too risky to act. So we should make it a point to remember our history and teach it to others. Not merely our centuries old struggle against colonialism but also the more recent fight for justice, fairness and prosperity. We should visit the newly re-opened Ayala Museum, and take our kids with us. We should pass on good news, and there is a lot of it to be found! Though the infidelities of artistas are more newsworthy than the years of hard work of Dr. Carmencita Padilla and our Lingkod Bayan awardees or the laudable conduct of our relief and rescue workers, there is more good news than bad. The bad news is just more fashionable. But something has to change first!
Filipinos have no self-discipline, we do not follow the rules because no one else does. So we must do the right thing, adhere uncompromisingly to our moral standards. We cannot control the behavior of others, but we can control what we do. We are a country rich in faith, both in quality and in diversity, but whether we proclaim the Apostle’s Creed or the Shahada, there is one thing I’m sure we would all agree on: If we are only good because of fear of punishment and hope for reward, then the faith we posess is hollow. If we were better Catholics, Christians, Moslems, Hindus, Jews and Buddhists; we would be better Filipinos. If we were to say: “I do the right thing and I do it for myself, no matter what the conduct of others”, then you would see a renaissance. But something has to change first!
Filipinos are petty, so we must stop being petty ourselves. We have shot down ideas and shut down programs, not because of their quality but because they were born in the minds and built by the hands of a rival or a predecessor. Our definition of success is individualistic, even though our own history teaches us that no radical change has ever occurred in this country that did not incorporate the goals of the powerful with the goals of the many. The government cannot be depended on, so we must think of public-private partnerships, of entrepreneurship for economic development. But something has to change first!
Filipinos are corrupt; our government is incorrigible, our children are gambling, cheating each other on Ragnarok, addicted to whatever drugs they can afford, our graduates do not meet the standard of education that industry requires; so we must donate to our schools, both public and private. We must give back to teachers the luster of their profession and the dignity that comes with a proper salary. We must think of win-win situations, of living in integrity. But something has to change first!
That something is me.
That something is you.
So to hell with what the world, the media, the millions of cynics may say! Because “yes, the Filipino can” and soon the Filipino will! I refuse to lose hope in the Filipino, because I refuse to lose hope in my family and friends, I refuse to lose hope in myself. Thank God, I can change. Thank God, I can work, inspire, lead, act and care!
Whatever else the future brings, thank God, thank God I’m a Filipino!
Amen, girl!
Posted by: Eric | 25 December 2004 at 10:33 AM
Amen and alleluia! I am requiring my students to read this. Seriously.
The irony is, if you ever try to get this published, people will ignore you because of that still, small voice at the back of their heads saying, "she might be right...but no, she's a young girl, how can she be right?"
"Argh" appears to be the coping word of the century in this country.
Argh.
Posted by: Charlie | 04 January 2005 at 10:47 AM
Thank God for people like you.
I hope it's all right for me to post this entry on my journal and link this site. :)
Posted by: Rosa | 10 March 2005 at 03:12 AM
Hi Rosa! I see you found my little patriotic blog. Feel free to link away and pass it on. Thanks for the kind words.
Posted by: casualsavant | 10 March 2005 at 10:31 AM
Totally f'n amazing writing!
Posted by: diong | 23 April 2005 at 02:54 AM
Thanks! This is proving to be my most cited entry so far. Despite the fact that I wrote it after a sugar rush brought on by half a dozen cookies.
Posted by: casualsavant | 23 April 2005 at 02:41 PM
yep! i agree with you...how i wish every Filipino would feel the same. but i'm still hopeful...God has a great promise! i believe that it will happen...www.gawadkalinga.org
Posted by: joan | 06 September 2005 at 05:49 PM
If they don't it's because no one tells them enough about how great our country really is, and how much we can accomplish.
Posted by: casualsavant | 07 September 2005 at 12:33 AM
Hi Maoi!
Ha, I didn't notice this is your blog until I saw some pictures and searched your name in Google to verify if this is you. And it is, because this appeared on the search result.
By the way, time and again, inspiring as ever. :)
P.S. I added you on my LJ friends if that's ok with you. Regards.
Posted by: Omar Cruz | 22 November 2005 at 05:25 PM
I too am hopeful that someday majority of the Filipinos will realize this...
Posted by: audienceone | 11 February 2006 at 10:02 AM
Loved your post. We've been in Manila for the past year and we LOVE it here!! :)
Amit
www.madras2manila.blogspot.com
Posted by: Amit | 02 October 2006 at 10:07 PM
Argh ! The truth really hurts !!!!!
At several points I found myself laughing while reading your article - recognizing myself , and honestly - I FEEL EMBARRASSED and ASHAMED, and I thank you a lot for making me feel like that !! I get to know myself more-especially my own flaws as a Filipino. Also, I get to understand why I felt "LOST" while trying to integrate and assimilate esp with my "host culture". Thank you for reminding me that I am a Filipino! And YES - Thank God, I am a Filipino !!!
As they say, we often if not always see the flaws in others and in the system, but very seldom our very own. And yes, if we hope for change - IT HAS TO START WITH OURSELVES.
Again, MARAMING SALAMAT !!Mabuhay ka Maoi !
P.S.: hopefully it's OK, too that i post this article in my journal and in some sites we have here in Sweden. /jena
Posted by: jena | 23 January 2007 at 11:29 PM
God bless you big time! yes, indeed there is hope for the filipinos knowing that people like you exist...continue hoping, thanks for the inspiration)...
Posted by: kareL | 03 October 2007 at 04:01 AM
I love what you are writing here Maoi.
It's hard to change because as many always say, "kakainin ka ng sistema". From the president, all the way to the janitor in a government office is doing something illegal. And it's hard when you're the only person trying to change. But I agree with you, we need to keep doing right thing.
As Guy Kawasaki once said "obey the absolutes".
Keep sharing your thoughts and goodluck to your business. We need more Pinoys to inspire and lead this country.
Posted by: Greg Moeno | 13 November 2007 at 10:44 AM
Is there a place in the US or back home for a Filipino non-believer?
Posted by: Jerry | 17 May 2008 at 08:22 AM
Hi!
I searched for your name in google after reading your article from angbagongpinoy.org I'd just like to see who wrote this amazing amazing article. Nice to see a fellow patriot, online.
Mabuhay po!
Posted by: ann | 07 December 2008 at 04:31 AM
Can we repost your blogs on Bayanihan Post?
http://www.bayanihanpost.com
Posted by: da | 07 December 2008 at 05:39 AM
Just to get back with what Omar has posted on the 22nd of Novemer 05 saying,
"I too am hopeful that someday majority of the Filipinos will realize this..."
Well, i for once would like to add that if someday somehow Filipino's will come to realise and will get to know more of what we were and what a hard life we've been before, then i'm hopeful too that we'll get to learn from our mistakes. Filipinos have been having a hardbound life aside from some people who are wealthy but until now we are looked down and yes we do look down on ourselves if i'm being honest. So what then? Where are we going?
For the love of our country and ourselves we should be much obliged to make a resort and contribute to it's development and care. Each person should rethink and give some serious thought about it. It shouldn't be taken as for a laugh but we need to come up to it in our senses to face what we have to look forward to.
If one cruel downturn of our nation is corruption, can't that be brought into a halt? If that is the core problem in government, can we avoid the hell out of it? Is there any other way to avoid that torture so developments and welfare of the people will be given? Wages and salaries should increase. Jobs should flourish and prices should go down and not that we can't afford no more. But they paralyse us and kill us through all this.
Are we saying that our government really haven't got the guts to perform as most of us Filipino's wishes to be?
..and can't Philippines be able to make or form a feasible system that works properly so we won't be going in circles with all this pain again and again that's not going anywhere but it's just always been a struggle?
..Oh dear, what would you have to do? Why can't we Filipino's unify to bring a big subject of discussion in the government and with the people, to bring about views, ideas and suggestions, and get the best things out of it to move on.
If one can give a little thought, then altogether we can make a great thought out of it. Definitely we need to do something to pave a way from our hardstricken lives, and the failing economy, authorities and the government should be the light in our paths and sure they need to protect and provide for us as a father to the children.
When can we learn how to protect our own and make up what we've got left. Tell me, what happened to our resources, have they been locked and unable to produce wealth and creations of anymore basic developments? Can't we Filipino's not able to run our own resources and unable to make it flourish into a wider market around the world? We should do more of that but can we? Have we lost the right and have given up the fight without anymore to give? What's going to happen to our children's and children's children generation? Will you just be allowing it for them to be treated as slave or have an ill treatment from everyone else? Why are we too fearful and too lazy to use our minds, our hearts, hands to bring a brand new start.
I beleive each one would be happy to see our own country rise and flourish if we give it a real good chance. Can we have a better balance of control and to withstand the challenges and demands and the downturns of economy and as well as globally. That requires us more focus and more work has to be done beyond the naked eye.
Of course everyone would like to think that this matter should be dealt with starting from the top inside Government, down to the lowest. Also from Businesses, Media, Universitie's, Colleges, Schools, the bylaws, the whole system and families to be well informed and have got the necessary education to work on. And if families are supported, the quality of life will get better. Filipino's will have more smile on thier faces and we'll know better what to do. We'll face a better and brighter tomorrow so what have you to ask than for us to move forward. As of now, tayo'y isang kayod, isang tuka. Karamihan sa atin we feel low and we dread the economy and the situation of our country.
Posted by: abes | 16 January 2009 at 10:25 AM
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thanks to all!
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